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a day… my frenship recover wif my best fren…a day tht i done d most horrible things in my life..a day tht gave me lots of memory….

dono how to express my feel….

i so sad whn i saw u keep on crying n sad for few days.. even me too.. i cant even sleep or even laught.. whn i see u from ur bac,i realise tht u thin oledi… but.. not tht onli.. i realise tht ur heart reali wont be recover.. but same as me too.. even how bad u do on me.. y i stil owes stand on urside…help u to solve all of this?? i reali damn hate myself,even i hurted by ur attitude.. y i stil ….wil owes b.side u.. until u change…

even how sad u r. n how far. .. i wil ..owes.. hear ut tear form ur heart….whn we decide to do any decision… we wil need to pay responsible on wat we had made…

a word.. to her…

thanks for being wif me.. whn i confused for my feeling this few days…. miss u.. n thanks for.. caring me this few days… unforgetable.. wat we had done today…

a guy.. tht reali bring many meaningful memory for me.. thanks.. for d moment whn i upset.. u had sent a sms tht reali touch deeply my feels… i reali wanna say thanks.. even.. tht just.. a sms tht.. bring .. nothing meaning from u….anyway.. thanks.. for..u

a word.. to her.. joyce. reali thanks.. for ur comforting this few day… thanks for ur supporting n thanks for ur luv. muaks…. i feel happy coz.. at last the fren tht beside me..forever important to me.. muaks…

thanks.. guys…roland,samami,alvin…. our frenship wont light up without u all… mis ya…we wont be able to meet al d same times.. whn future come… hope.. we wil be able to keep uo n appreciate what we have now…..

a words.. to d frenship… no longer.. all of us wil.. having our test.. for this moment.. we passed many things between us.. we have our best memory inside… n havig our sweetest things

                         however… we wil be leaving each other…

one more month… some of us wil be going for further study… some of us wil be.. work.. some wil leaving tawau… muaks.. appreciate wat we have now.. miss u all n luv all..coz.. fren share anythings.. even our feel n secret….

                        miss u all.. we have been long time.. din contact each other or meet for long time… feel wanna hug u all n gonna kiss long long time wif u all… i promise tht i wil be meet u all.. n we wil gather for one nit crazy party whn we meet up one day.. n d day.. i finish my exam.. muaks.. thanks.. for standing  by my side always…..

Today is d feel tht i feeling COMPLEX.. can call it a day of CHAP PA LANG..i realise tht today eveli things.. seem going badly on me… today my mind sladh too many things on me… i even feel myself is a failure.. even somethings i hard to forget… i can say tht.. my heart reali broke.. since i knew d truth, even bout fren,a boy, a last time… all reali just seem like a scar in my heart,4eva n 4eva.. just like d floor, never wil be recover any…… whn i saw d stair case.. my mind flash many things,even tht i walk this stair over d years,but today whn i walked it, i felt tht i hardly to walk by it?yyy?a stair tht reali meaningful to me,i contain my luv between frens, memory between my frens,memory between me n him.. QUARELING wif my frens,we drop our tears,how we enjoying our tutorial in our schul,the first time i met u coz.. of ur(panty)hahah….but.. i just left few more days, i wil be leaving here any…….

i dono y today.. evelithings come out to me….even my birthday memory.. i din post on my blog… but. i reali appreciate wat mybest frens have done on my bitrthday party… my life… get two surprised party on d same year ,same time… muaks.. i reali thanks god for giving me a lots of fren for me… i drop my tears for u.. not onli for one more times….but. i wil save u all in my memory…….. wont be FORMAT forever… muaks… thanks,a reali meaningful 20 to me…. muaks.. n d cake i forever to kept in my mind….by d way.. i oso met a group of fren..thanks.. for those cutie guys for making my cake.. n telling me so many things..n share u all de secret wif me…

I reali dono wat happen on me today…today my mood reali damn bad…even.. sometimes.. my family wont able to give me wat i want.. but.. wat i need.. they wil owes give me.. tht is luv.. even sometimes.. me is d one.. who owes get scolded.. but i know tht.. d ppl tht wil forever luv me in this world ,will be them….even sometimes.. i feel unfair… for.. their luv.. but.. i stil wan to say i luv u all.. bro,mom, n dad….bro.. i know.. he owes.. keep on cool on me.. but i know.. he must be luv me.. i promise myself..even how.. i sure wil luv my bro.. n take care my bro forver.. mauks.. thanks god for giving me ,it is faith to b.come sister n brother…

A FOREVER IMPORTANT PERSON IN MY MIND

Mama…my aunty ANN… i miss u so much… even u leave me so far… a hand tht i never wil touch again…d voice tht i never wil hear again… but.. u stil owes in my heart.. even now.. i stil cry for u… u never leave from my heart… i cant ever touch ur hand anymore…i reali miss u.. aunty ann…. yesterday nite. i cry n cry n cry…. ur smiel, ur cooking… i reali wan to see u… y u never meet me up.. since u away??i owes waiting to meet u … but y??i just met u d last nite.. was d nite u told me tht this was d lunch dinner tht u can cook for me to eat…. i stil remember d hug whn we at hospital.. u ask me to take care ur family.. i reali try hard.. i luv them.. but.. i luv u more… yesterday nite… aunty ann… i reali cry for u again.. i reali miss u…i reali feel damn lonely.. aunty ann.. if u stil here… sure u wil help me to solve any problem tht i met… sure u wil be always.. stand by me…eveli times.. i do anythings n think any things.. i stil remember wat u had tell me… but now.. i reali dono wat shud i o.. i can say.. i lose my direction.. i dono wat i thinking.. i owes think badly.. i owes think i’m alone..i owes think.. i not pretty..i owes think.. tht y i wil be d one.. be alone… m i reali so bad n ugly until…where i can find my true luv?y i owes wil be d one who hurted by ppl?i know.. u wil tell me.. u is d most pretty child in my heart… i know.. u was another mother for me.. i know…i know.. u wil help me…sometimes.. even i sad,i know u wil bebless me in heaven…i know..whn i was in pkn.. u came to see me,even i cant see u or touch u,but i know.. u were there…tht nite i cry in pkn.. i reali miss u .. coz.. i get know.. u was beside me…aunty ann… i reali miss u n luv u….u have been.. leaving me for..2 yeas… i reali miss u n luv u…i wil take care myself.. coz.. i know. i shud be one. who to suit d situation.. but..not situation to suit me…I LOVE U….

Tonite.. i reali feel.. dono.. i shud happy or cry….tears drops.. even i just thinking of evelithings…wat shud i do?i losing my direction… i reali scare to be alone… scare to los anyone of my life… scare to loss evelithings in my life… i reali feel envy bout others….i know… my true luv wil coming.. i know. .. i have…a group of frens… i know. .. i am a lucky gal…but.. jus my heart.. reali damn moody…. i even.. cant control myself.. just feel.. evelithings.. come to my heart… keep on bothering me… i try veli hard…… to change all myself.. b.come a gud fren, a gud gal… but.. y i owes wil……i stil remember my k bro say.. jus be bac urself.. if one day a boy is luv me… he wil don mind how bad m i, how ugly m i , how fat m i… but.. is tht wil a man in this world think like tht, in realistic world… all boy sure wil look d appearance of d gal first…no mather.. how d gal look like?m i?

eveli nite.. watching on my hp… i realise tht.. i wont be able to hear any voice.. or even my hp start to ring…. mayb i oledi..comfort myself.. for.. talking phone wif somebody,hearing gudnite from somebody,getting sms from somebody…….but.. now.. it reali silence for long long time oledi……

but.. writting blog… reali a damn gud way.. to express my feeling…. reali thanks…..i know.. if i treat n see something by true heart,sure one day i wil be ok… n sure someday.. someone.. will appreciate wat  i have done… but wil tht day come???

WHO CAN TELL ME????……..

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